an insight of my mind

Oh and I’m chilling with my nan :’)

Tumble tumble tumble

I’m feeling so happy.

its coming together

So soon its half term. I’ll have completed a full half term at college. My first. And like everything you do the first time, I can’t have it back.

But its been a success.

My best friend is coming to visit me in the holiday, I’m seeing Green Day in the holiday anddd… its halloween. It should be good. And he’s interested again. So this is good news for me anyway.

I also need to start sleeping more… which I’ll work on.

Sometime… maybe.

next on the agenda

A boyfriend.

That’d be nice… It won’t be him though now… I’m sure of it. He just wants sex. I don’t want to give him that. Not yet. But fine… whatever.

I’ll lose a tonne of weight (already planned and started that) then… people might actually be interested in me. Here’s hoping. Oh this depresses me - I hate feeling this way. It bugs me so much.

time to get a job and grow up

yeah so apparently I’m mature anyway…

but its time I actually prooved that point, so I’m getting a job, the perfect oppurtunity to proove that I’m adult in mind if not in age. I applied for jobs all summer with no luck at all, maybe its because I’m not experienced, I’ve never had a job so I guess the employers have no idea if I’ll be any good.

So… my job choices were -

hairdressing, HMV, subway (not the best choice i know), primark.

None of them wanted me - they never even phoned or anything - which is kind of rude in my opinion. But the last choice I have for employment is… McDonalds.

I’m really not a fan of this idea but… its got to be done. I want to be taken seriously, so I’ll take the crappiest job I can and I’ll do it, earn the money I need and then pay for my OWN driving lessons right after my 17th birthday.

Maybe this won’t work… maybe it will. I guess theres only one way to find out. Tomorrow (or sometime over the next week) I’m going to McDonalds to see if I can get a job!

Wish me luck.